Focus… February 20, 2008
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Focus. It’s what I don’t have right now. I need to get it back.
Generally I pride myself as being a grab-the-bootstraps-git’r-done kind of gal. Lately not so much. Case in point:
- I’ve been eating like crap. For example, I skipped lunch to take the girls to the grocery store (how ironic is that). The hour-long trip was peppered with mom-isms of “inside voices”, “walking feet”, “don’t touch your sister”, “maybe next time we can get that”, and (my favorite), “don’t make me come over there”. As we headed to the check-out line, I realized that I had the shakes and should probably grab a little snack for myself. Did I grab an apple or a banana? Nope, I grabbed a bag of sugary dried pineapple. After I got the groceries loaded in the car, did I have just a few bites? Of course not. I ate the whole bag. Was it good? Not really, but for some reason I felt this sense of urgency that I had to eat something, and a lot of it in order to recover.
- My running has gone down the tubes. I have no goal like the LVHM from December. For me, no goal means no do. Sure, I can still run 5 miles, but it doesn’t feel as easy nor do I do it often enough to feel like I get something out of it.
- I have a schooling show in less than three weeks. What have I done to prepare? Nothing.
And the scary thing about the 3 points above? I have no plan. No ideas on how to fix those things.
So today, I make a plan. I get back on track. I find those bootstraps. I git’r done.
More importantly, I find myself again.
This is what I think is the hardest of all. I feel lost. I’m watching my fitness decline, my waistline surge, and my horse sits. These are all pieces of me that are part of my identity. And I *want* them to be part of my identity. But at this time they embody my failure to get a grip.
I’m a fairly smart person (or I like to think so). So why can’t I just run more, eat better, and ride my horse more? It sounds so simple. But as I sit here in front of my computer I’m realize that it’s not that simple. I’m not a robot. I can’t push the right buttons and make it happen. I’m an emotional person, and my emotions dictate a lot of what I do.
*sigh*
Time for a plan. Time to focus.
So Beth, want to go for a run tomorrow?…
Comments
Sometimes we are on automatic. It sounds like that was the case today. I feel like this sometimes too. If I don’t have some kind of goal, then I don’t have a reason to eat right, train right etc.
My clients motivate me sometimes. They want to do a stair climb or a bike ride. When they talk about it I find myself getting motivated again.
I like to pick a few races to do with clients or I go back and run favorite races. The St Paddy’s Dash is always fun. Beat the Bridge is another fun one. There are some half marathons coming up too (Kirkland, Bellevue, West Seattle, Jock n’ Jill)
Maybe you and Beth should pick a couple of events?
Kim, You’re not alone… I’ve been sort of drifting myself. I’ve been really busy with work, and I’ve let my fitness priorities totally drop off… Ironic, when you consider that Sweat365 is my work.
So… I’m taking it easy on vacation… I’m not stressing about fitness, I’m scuba diving, playing with the kids, hanging out with Adrien… and working a little at night…. but is reading your blog really work?
But as soon as I return from vacation (saturday) I’m hitting the reset button. It’ll be all about eating healthy, and focusing on my Ironman in September.
Kim, I’ve been hearing from so many people that they feel a little lost and off track this month. I’m not sure where its coming from, but you’re not alone. Sure, misery may love company, but it doesn’t help in the big picture. I know you’re a planner, so take control and make a plan that gives you time for you and the things you love. Then, I have faith, it will fall into place!
Um, it’s late February, and it’s Seattle, and everyone is in this state! Too much winter gray & gloom.
How about going somewhere and getting some SUN?
Wow, it’s an epidemic! And I have it too. The last comment is right on track~ it’s February, in my case in Virginia, and we’re all tired of the dark, and the cold and the slippery. I can feel the restlessness in me to set a big goal and work hard for it, after the last few weeks of basically auto pilot.
You’re right Kim~ make a plan. I’m going to do the same.
My funk hit in January. Nothing I did seemed to get me untracked from the blahs. Then I published my goal list, and now everything is better. Even though the weather still sucks (but not this week), I have made 7+ hours of exercise for three straight weeks. It’s goal number one for me, and it keeps me doing something even when I don’t feel like it. I now plan my week around how I’m going to get it done.
I say find your BHAG (Big, Hairy, Audacious, Goal), and let all know about it. That will get you moving again.
This wise, wise woman had these really important words for me the other day, I thought I’d share them with you. She said “I know it’s hard, but try not to be so hard on yourself”.
Having said that, let’s get it in gear and kick some ass! Maybe we should assign each other fitness tasks - we can even assign them a color category of their very own!
Wow. My waistline is getting hugh too. This really sucks. I think I will go for a run. Jennie
I think that in order to keep your fitness schedule it is important to make it priority and make it a regular thing. Give yourself that little bit of time…make regular ‘appointments’ with yourself to have the time to work on your fitness. Also, focus on the benefits of it, and how it will make you feel and be so much healthier day to day! Even when I feel tired, lazy, or sore, I keep my appointments (with the goal to just get moving no matter how intense or mild the workout). Afterward I always leave with a smile and feeling much better than when I walked in to the gym to start the workout of running, cycling or whatever I feel like doing that day. I never regret keeping my fitness ‘appointments’ with myself even on the days I really just don’t think I have the energy or feel good enough. Also, I always end up doing more than I thought I would when I first walk in to the gym (thinking it would be a mild-intensity day)! Just get moving is my goal. Making it priority is the only way my fitness goals will not slip. Yourself and those around you will thank you!